I want to style my hair before school starts. I want to do so many things that I couldn't. I want to get new clothes, I want to pierce my ear, though I'm not too sure about that.

But the thing that I don't want to do is to lose myself. I still want to be me amidst all these temptations and freedom. I am me. I am the girl who hangs out with guys very often. I am the girl who doesn't get high seeing guys. (But trust me, I'm straight) I'm the girl who's depressed half the time and crazy the other half. I'm the girl who smiles at herself at random points of time. I'm the girl who can't get as enthusiastic as others. I'm the girl who doesn't change her mind so much. I'm the girl who puts herself through so much just to get to her goals. I'm the girl who cares, who wants to achieve the best she can. I'm the girl who doesn't like lying when I can tell the truth. I'm the girl who reads. I'm the girl who blogs. I'm the girl who stays up till 5 am when she can. I'm the girl who wants to be the best she can be. I'm the girl who dreams, both the possible and the impossible. I'm the girl who doesn't dare tell anyone who she likes. I'm the girl who doesn't care how the pretty and popular kids think of me or even look at me because I'm just who I am. I can't change it.

If a guy were to fall for me, I want him to fall for ME, not some fake me. I will never change just to make friends or to make a guy like me. I want to be me and if it's not getting me anyone or anywhere, it's fine with me.