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Monday, November 16, 2009

\\*Many, many things...*//

So many things... I'm going to sigh my head off soon if I go on like this. Life has been a tad terrible recently and I don't think it's going to get any better soon. Ever heard of people who are really nice on the outside, but really nasty and vicious on the inside? They really mean to hurt you though I wonder what they gain from it. Joy? Joy at watching others suffer? These people must be really poisoned. It hurts so bad sometimes, but I can't just shoot at that fellow. Imagine you giving your trust to someone. Then, WHAM! he hurls a boulder at you. How would you feel? Hurt? Definitely. Really sad? Of course. Furious? It covers all the other emotions. I had to keep all these emotions inside my heart all the while when that particular vicious fellow hurt me constantly. I couldn't vent my anger at any point of time because I was so surrounded by people. Just for your information, that fellow is a well-liked person although I don't know what everybody else sees in that person. That person has definitely many more supporters than me and if I just lose it one day, EVERYBODY will be loathing me. Well, except for my few close friends. It's been countless times that I went to spend time alone, thinking too much, on the brink of going crazy. I can't think of a reason why somebody could withstand the horror of seeing others writhing in pain. I had to put up a false front every single day when I come into contact with that fellow, smiling, laughing, but grimacing behind the person's back. I can't take it anymore. You know what? It ain't worth it to sit down here brooding over a black-hearted person. I should save my energy to do some other things that will benefit my wrecked heart and soul.

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