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Friday, September 11, 2009

\\*Numb*//

Prolonged periods devoid of human contact can lead to craziness. There's a live example sitting here. I have become so numb I can barely feel anymore. Suddenly my emotions are all locked deep in my heart. It's not that I do not have feelings but that I'm so numb to all the things that happened in my life that they just refuse to show anymore. Time, to me, passes like a lightning bolt. Everything that happens has little effect on me. The most exposed and easily brought out of its hiding place is anger itself. I've become so irritated by the tiniest thing in this world recently and the worst thing is that I am having severe difficulties controlling it. It's horrible. I wasn't like this before. I can't help wondering what is happening to me. Just a few days ago, I went to KL with my family. We went to Genting Highlands after that. Sickeningly enough, the thrill rides were totally nothing to me at all. Other than that space shot thing. The roller coasters failed to induce fear in me and there was hardly any adrenaline rush running through my veins. Every drop was like a car driving down a slope. It all seemed so slow to me. All I felt was tiredness and headache. It's weird. Even the usual things that will trigger my adrenaline rush only makes my heart wiggle. It used to be huge jumps that got me crazy the whole day. What in the world has happened to me?

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