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Monday, April 6, 2009

\\*A Chain Of Thoughts*//

April 4, 2009
Time passes so quickly. I hardly have time to blink my eyes. Weeks have passed since the start of school this year and we have taken numerous tests that harmed our brains. SYF is on April 6, probably around 2.15pm. 2 days. That's all we have now. We have practised very hard and we really want a Gold very badly. It's in everybody's hearts. Deep down where you can't see it. We're going to show the whole school that band is not just a lousy CCA where the foot drills suck and nobody can play well. We're going to show them that we can achieve our dreams through hard work and perseverance. We don't have support from the school and we really suffered a lot during these few grueling months. Despite not having a place to practice, we still survived and truth is, we have grown much stronger than we first were when we entered the school. We are small but we have power and the determination to pull through all our hardships and show the world that size really doesn't matter. All it takes is your heart and soul and the hard work that you put in. We're going to do our very best on the 6th April and come back with the best result the school has ever attained.
April 6, 2009
I cried. Almost the whole band cried. We really didn't expect this. Now, I feel that all our time and effort has gone to waste. I woke up by myself in the morning, looking forward to the SYF. I was feeling excited the whole while. It felt really great to be outside the classroom looking at the rest suffering from boredom. Then, we went to the hall to practise. All the way to 11am. Then, we had a long break. Me and Li Yue went to the cafe to look for Chunwen and Joanne. Then we laughed and ate. I accidentally ate Chunwen's chilli noodles. So much for trying to control what I ate yesterday. Then we changed into the band uniform and went back to the hall. Atiq and Junie and some of the ex-seniors checked our attire then we went to board the bus. Shafarie sat beside me and told some really long stories of his new school and his dance partner. Oh and A and B. Haha. When we reached, we sat down on the floor to wait for our turn. After that, we did tuning in the tuning room. Everbody was full of confidence. Well, maybe some we nervous. Then, we went up. To the area outside the performance area. We moved in and sat down. Then we started playing. I thought, I thought, I thought, everything was quite normal. Except for my shivering fingers and my faster than normal heartbeat. And I was quite contented with our performance. Most of us were relieved when we finished. Li Yue was one of the happiest ones. Then, lots of negative comments came. That's when we realised that something went wrong somewhere. We went back to school and kept all the stuff. All of us were feeling the suspense as we waited for the results at the canteen. I bought something to eat and drink. I couldn't take it any longer. I was partially bus-sick and 1/2 too hungry. Finally 5.30pm. The time we have been waiting for. The time when our fate is sealed. Li Yue was considering running around the parade square with the speech day rehearsal going on shouting 'Gold!' if we got gold. But then, we saw Thwe Ni running over saying 'We got bronze leh...' We didn't believe initially because she wasn't sure as well but then Atiq came sobbing and then Viknesh called Angeline. And then he mouthed the word Bronze. Li Yue broke down. I broke down then Liting. Then Cassandra. Then when the rest heard about the results, practically everybody cried. Even the guys. Imagine, non band members. Imagine our disappointment. I went on crying for the next hour or so, crying harder when someone consoled me. When we finally decided that we lost enough water through our tears, it was around 7 if I'm not wrong. Li Yue's mum called and she cried again just as Joanne came shouting bronze. I almost broke down again. In the end, Li Yue's mum went to pick her up in front of the temple and me, Joanne and Ming Siew walked to the MRT station together. Joanne went home and I went in to the air-con mall to cool down. Then, I accompanied Ming Siew to eat dinner at the Kopitiam and received a call from my mum. She asked me how was it and I nearly cried. Then I went home. I spilled everything out. Got some funny lectures. I went off to bathe in cold water and here I am.
Epilogue
So now you guys who really have the patience to read my post, things are always unexpected. Really unexpected. Sometimes, you do something full of confidence and the outcome is disastrous. Sometimes though, you really don't know what you are doing but things turn out fine. With this, I end my post and hopefully all my disappointments and sorrows.

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